Things have had a chance to sink in more since I made my decision to leave school next year, and I am still completely at ease with the situation, which is good. I haven't had any moments of breaking into a cold sweat, terrified and wondering if I should change my mind back and stay in the program. So I guess that tells me something.
Summer has gotten a lot brighter though since I made that choice, which is awesome. I also think things have gotten a lot brighter in my life because my living situation is so much better than it was before. Also, my friends are better in my new place. I mean, when I lived on Elmdale Drive, which was originally touted as being "Chapel Thrillhouse" back when Kellie, Natalie and I were still naively optimistic about friendships, I was always in my room, always by myself, never really doing anything. We pretty much stopped hanging out as a threesome at night, and never even watched TV together in the common area. Everyone went into their rooms by around 8 and stayed there unless they wanted to watch something that had been DVR'ed or they needed something from the kitchen. I was miserable and isolated in my shoebox of a room. Now that I am in my new place, I have been so much happier. We hang out in the living room all the time, I am always doing stuff on the weekends (to the point where I almost miss my laziness), and I don't feel stuck in a dank bedroom, since mine is filled with light and space now. It's a complete shift in my outlook and attitude, something I didn't even realize had sunk to a depressing low. I'm glad to have such positive, awesome roommates now.
Also, I am realizing that a lot of my friends from UNC are elitist assholes. But that's another story. Haha.
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it is amazing what light and space will do to a person, huh?
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